Thursday, July 30, 2009
Noong high school ako, pumasok ako sa isang parang all-boys na boarding school. Typical environment doon - pilyo ang marami, playful, curious, and exploring. Hindi sa pagmamayabang, but I was one of the cutest and popular guys of the freshman class (cute pa rin 'til now, ahihihi) kaya halos lahat ng upperclassmen ay favorite ako.
Si Babur ay sophomore. Kasama siya sa honor roll ng class nila; at magaling sa Math. Nagsama kami sa Math Olympiad contest; siya ang representative ng class nila at ako sa aming class. Sabay kami sa review and coaching. Dahil sa contest na yun, kami ay naging magkaibigan. Panay na ang aming kwentuhan gabi-gabi. Ang saya ng feeling ko dahil pakiramdam ko, nakahanap ako ng tunay na kaibigan. Parang isang kuya. Only boy ako sa family; may ganoong feeling na gusto mo may kuya ka. At si Babur na yun.
Okay na sana ang lahat ngunit isang gabi, naging kakaiba ang aming kwentuhan. Napag-usapan namin ang tungkol sa masturbation, sa kissing, sa pagpapalaki ng size ng ari. I was thirteen; he was fourteen. I guess we were very curious to a fault. Funny thing is, I pretended not to know how to masturbate when in fact I have been doing the act since Grade 5 ( I was 11 or 12 then I think). Oops, too much information hehehe.
Tinuruan ako kunwari ni Babur kung panu magmasturbate. He held mine and stroke it. He asked me to hold his and do the same. And we stroke each other til we came. After that, we became like jerk buddies. Whenever we felt like it, we would masturbate.
Di lang yun ang tinuro sa kin ni Babur. He even taught me how to French kiss...Bigla na lang nangyari yun. Hindi pinlano o pinag-usapan. Marahil dala ng kapusukan at bugso ng damdamin.
Sa totoo lang, enjoy naman nung nangyayari ang lahat ng yun. Pwede ring sabihin na nasasarapan kami kaya naulit ng maraming beses. But little did we know that this was also causing the deterioration of what could have been a genuine friendship and brotherhood. It is difficult if not impossible to be kissing and cumming with a friend. Mali ang equation namin.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes - how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year in the life?
How about love? How about love? How
about love? Measure in love.
Seasons of love
525,600 minutes! 525,000 journeys to plan.
525,600 minutes - how can you measure the life of a woman or man?
In truths that she
Or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned,
Or the way that she died....
It's time now to sing out,
the story never ends let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends.
How about love!
How about love! How about love!
Measure in love.
Seasons of love! Seasons of love.
P.S. Clip taken from the film version as there is no decent clip from the Broadway version
Bigla na lang may nagtext sa kin ng lyrics ng "Seasons of Love" mula sa musical na Rent. Eh favorite ko yun...Kaya medyo naintriga ako. Sino kaya itong taong ito na alam yung song na yun. Di naman pop yung song or yung musical. Medyo naging curious ako.
It turns out, nakuha niya ang number through his friend whom I met in a wedding. Kase parang napagkwentuhan namin yung song na yun at yung musical. Nagmagaling at nagkunwaring cupid kaya he gave my number to Alwin.
Matanda sa kin si Alwin. He was in his early 30's ; I was in my 20's. Physically, he was mestizo, clean, smooth. Cutey. On hindsight, napansin ko lang, parang mas nakakarelate ako sa mga matanda sa akin kesa sa mga ka-edad ko. In short, naging ok naman kami. Kumbaga, we hit it off right away.
He's a veterinarian working for an animal health corporation. But he always dabbled in the arts. Yun siguro yung pinagkasunduan namin. He was into photography. He collected comic books and action figures. He likes movies. He was into musicals. Ang dami namin napagkwentuhan. Marami akong nalaman mula sa kanya; at alam ko, marami rin siyang nakuhang kaalaman mula sa akin. Shared interest breeds compatibility.
Halos araw-araw pumupunta siya ng bahay. Medyo effort kase he had to take the NLEX just to see me. I appreciated the gesture of course, plus the fact that enjoy siyang kasama. Kulong lang kami sa car niya, kwentuhan while listening to songs that he wanted me to hear. Minsan pa, he would hold my hand. And then kiss me. Sweet. Parang movie, parang musical. Pero dahil nga ganun, may twist. May conflict. May catch.
May kalive-in partner na pala siya...E di biglang tinapos ko ang movie at ang musical...The end na. Closing credits kagad.
P.S. When I met Alwin, I was also in a relationship. But I wasn't really into the relationship, if you know what I mean. I was willing to lay it all on the line for Alwin...But what the hey, the good ones are always taken. C'est la vie.